I guess its for a number of reasons...

but I've just not been able to write much lately. Fredu is out of town for work until the end of the week thus fullt-time baby duty is tiring me out... Jo jo and Becks are here visiting which has been fabulous. They are both so good with the bub and have helped out tons. I'm blessed to know such wonderful people.

The job search continues but we're a long way from being out of the woods. I'm looking and looking but not a single interview yet. All in due time I supposed but I think time may be starting to be the biggest enemy (that and the bills of course). I think I falsely convinced myself a few weeks ago that it would all be sorted by now... finding that this was clearly not the case is a bit hard. I'm praying for some divine direction. We stopped into Santa Maria del Mar today to ask for help with just that.

So here I sit with a sad dog mourning the absence of her dad curled up in my lap and the tiny one fast asleep in her bed punching in the words to try and push through this. Its mad really as much as I crave financial infusion I also cringe at the thought of having to say good bye to this precious time with the girls... life gets tougher... why don't they tel you this?